Life may not be the party we hope for...

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 08:03:05 GMT

I know I said no more updates...but I do what I want!

umm so I hate people who act one way in front of certain people and then another way in front of another person...I mean im know everyone does it at one point but ahh this girl is driving me insane. I love her to death but why can't she just tell me the truth? She lied to me and is keeping something from me...of course its no big deal...like what she is "keeping" from me isent a big deal at all..its just the fact that she calls me her best friend and doesn't tell me this and tells other people...haha which these other people told me which is awesome im glad i know a secret that she was keeping from lol its just "shady"...ahh i hate how she tries to act all "badass" in front of certain people ahh she needs to learn that all that does is make her look like an idiot!!

On a happier note!! Tonight I got to hang out with Hannah and Leslie!! Wahoo!! I love those girls there soo...hmm whats the word?? Funny, beautiful, crazy, silly, cute, hilarious, pretty, wonderful, splendid, haha Hannah can't you tell I am happy your home?!

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 20:31:03 GMT

I truly am sorry if you don't enjoy looking at pictures...

I got a new digital camera and well um that means even more pictures than before...goodness gracious its insane! haha!

These pictures are random pictures from this week (some from Christmas) and well...Lauren and I got bored the other night so it was a photo party!!

Leslie eating at Steak and Shake

Me and Lauren and the movies...

Lauren and Leslie again at Steak and Shake

Me on Christmas Eve (Notice no bangs...yay! they FINALLY grew out!)

My sister...she looks funny b/c I caught her laughing...but I never post pictures of her so I thought I would

Yummy turkey...psg I hate turkey tho lol

Our beautiful "real" Christmas tree

Blurry but my new mini ipod (GASP!) haha

Haha the waiter told the people next to us they couldnt take pictures so I took a quick snapshot

This is the beginning of Lauren and I being bored...

Haha don't you love the teeth?

I hate to say it but Lauren looks like she needs to go the bathroom...

Oh the good times

Haha we tried to take one of us looking away but I was trying soooo hard not to smile that my face looks like im about to do something evil...oops!

Haha take one of me behing the curtains!!

DOWNY!! Can't leave home without it! Haha I thought the girls from Lanies party would like this one!

Beautiful!

Me and Lauren actually smiling and not being goofy

Haha where do I begin?

Haha don't you love the glasses?

Beautiful again!!

AND THE WINNER IS........

Gotta love it!!

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 04:14:35 GMT

I have decided to give up on Livejournal...no need for me to write it anymore. However every once and awhile I will leave you some beautiful pictures b/c I love pictures and thats all you get to know about my life...haha! This has been nice while it lasted...and no worries I will still read my friends journals and comment when I feel like it!!

Sarah and me at the game

Me and Allie making our "famous" pose

haha Lauren laying on Thomas' bed...but too focused on Oprah to smile for a picture

Haha Grant and I labeled everything in Keiths room...weird!

Grant...

Me...

Weird...David and Lauren (in the background)

Chris (haha looks like he has no hair)

The result of my anger

Raymond!!

These girls couldn't be any cuter?!

Thom...ahh somewhat scary!

I'm watching you!

"Hey! I got an idea, lets throw a wet sock I found on the ground at Brittanys back...." Oops...

"The Girls"

Jasna and Brittany

Again another picture of "The Girls"

Beautiful picture of Rachel and Allie

Leslie and Hannah

Brritany, Hannah, and Lauren

Lisa, Rachael. and Allie

"The Boys"...and Rachael of course

Haha Hannah and Brittany...

Cuties....Clarke, Brandon and Tyler (the colors on their shirts make me smile!)

Jasna and Lauren

Chris and Will looking so festive in red...

Brittany and I had to much fun at Eckerds...

Hot stuff!

P.I.M.P.S.!

Brittany acting like she is about to die...

Santa Claus!!

Santa Claus once again!

Hannah

Juan and Leslie...

Haha oh the back of the van...

Aww the walker crew...

P.I.M.P.

Thom and Lanie

FOOTBALL GAME!!

Ah this is my favorite picture!!

Aww too cute

LANIE!!

Haha again our "famous" picture

Weird...

Oh the story behind this picture...

Allie and Me

Leslie, Allie, and Me

"The Boys"

Patti and Hannah

"My football gals whom I love singing with"

Brittany and Me (I look soooo pale)

Haha my present for Marie Claire...!!

Lisa and Allie

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 03:28:18 GMT

Your gender: Female
Straight/Gay/Bi: Straight
Single?: of course
If not, do you want to be?: sometimes im content being single other times i want someone
Birthdate: 11/26/88
Your age: 16
Age you act: Usually? when im acting immature probably 10...when im trying to act mature probably 18
Age you wish you were: 2...life was so easy then
Your height: 5'4
Eye color: brown
Happy with it?: yes i look myself deeply in the eyes often...
Hair color: honeybrown
Happy with it?: sure why not i could change it if i wanted to
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: righty
Your living arrangement: a house??
Your family: lame but i love them
Have any pets?: 2 dogs that i HATE
What's your job?: ...nothing at the moment but im getting one in Feb. any ideas?
Piercings?: 1 in my ear
Tattoos?: no way
Obsessions?: hot guys
Addictions?: hot guys
Do you speak another language?: no but i wish i spoke french...
Have a favorite quote?: "When life gets hard, treat it like a penis, and screw it!!" haha no thats not really my favorite i just read it on a t-shirt today and thought it was funny...
Do you have a webpage?: nope im not cool like Dorsie...

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it

Do you live in the moment?: no i wish i did tho
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yeah i try to be patient
Do you have any secrets?: yeah but nothing worth knowing
Do you hate yourself?: nope
Do you like your handwriting?: on some days...
Do you have any bad habits?: i talk way too much!
What is the compliment you get from most people?: "you have the greatest smile and are always happy"
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "No Words"
What's your biggest fear?: HORSES!! but i dont like talking about it...
Can you sing?: in my opionon I can but my friends say no...they are just jeoulous that I have a voice like my girl Ashleigh Simpson
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: i think everyone does at one point...
Are you a loner?: i dont like being alone like walking in the hallways by myself is weird...but i like to stay at home sometimes rather than going out...
What are your #1 priority in life?: God
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: sure
Are you a daredevil?: i wouldnt call it a "daredevil" i would call it..."willing to make an idiot out of myself"
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: I hate how I always think negative
Are you passive or agressive?: ??
Do you have a journal?: no
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: strength--i always try to cheer people up and hate seeing others sad weakness--im a loud mouth...
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: have more motivation towards things
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: oh god no
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: not really...
Do you think life has been good so far?: yep and it only gets better
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: hate the sin not the sinner
What do you like the most about your body?: i dunno
And least?: my feet
Do you think you are good looking?: uhh i dunno...
Are you confident?: nope not really
What is the fictional character you are most like?: sparky..made him up just now
Are you perceived wrongly?: yes

Do You...

Smoke?: Nope.
Do drugs?: Nope.
Read the newspaper?: nope but i write for pitchfork! (wut up now?!)
Pray?: ya
Go to church?: yes
Talk to strangers who IM you?: lol no awkward
Sleep with stuffed animals?: well i sleep with these pillows named cori and tapanga i dunno if you would consider them stuffed animals
Take walks in the rain?: cant say that i have
Talk to people even though you hate them?: lol yeah if i hate someone normally you cant tell by the way i talk to them
Drive?: 59 more days!!
Like to drive fast?: oh im a rebel!!

Would or Have You Ever?

Liked your voice?: no i think its annoying
Hurt yourself?: yup..not on purpose tho
Been out of the country?: yup (GO MEXICO, Lanie!)
Eaten something that made other people sick?: well there was this time...when I licked the back of a bus
Been in love?: nope
Done drugs?: naw
Gone skinny dipping?: nope
Had a medical emergency?: any odd medical emergency a person can have...i have had it!!
Had surgery?: oh yes as Cam would call it "Ol'e medal back" or "Crooked Spine"
Ran away from home?: yeah and i just sat at the stop sign untill my bedtime and my dad came and picked me up
Played strip poker?: uhh cant say that i have
Gotten beaten up?: nope
Beaten someone up?: oh yes my sister!!
Been picked on?: yes but sticks and stones may brake my bones but words can never hurt me (psh thats a bunch of crap!)
Been on stage?: ya
Slept outdoors?: plenty of times
Thought about suicide?: nope but my Lit. teacher told me in his pychology class he learned that everyone thinks about it at one point...weird
Pulled an all nighter?: ALL THE TIME!
If yes, what is your n? record?: 2 days...
Gone one day without food?: yeah during fasting...
Talked on the phone all night?: hmm 20,000 minutes on my cell phone! I would say so...
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: awkward question...
Slept all day?: many times...
Killed someone?: yeah, his name was Mr. Petti--oh wait that was just a dream..
Made out with a stranger?: nope
Had sex with a stranger?: nope
Thought you're going crazy?: lol oh yes
Kissed the same sex?: haha uhhh no
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: NO
Been betrayed?: ya its awesome...psh
Had a dream that came true?: if my dream came true....mr. petti wouldnt be here
Broken the law?: yeah one time i rode my bike on the wrong side of the sidewalk...goodness im a rebel!
Met a famous person?: yes lots
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: well when i was babysitting one time...i accidently let their bunny go and it got ran over by a car but i didnt actual kill it...
On purpose?: lol no
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: ...yeah but it was to protect someone
Stolen anything?: nope i would feel to bad for doing it
Been on radio/tv?: RADIO DISNEY WE'RE ALL EARS!...and i sang a song on TV called "we have been working on the playground"
Been in a mosh-pit?: no
Had a nervous breakdown?: yeah
Bungee jumped?: no i want to
Had a dream that kept coming back?: no i can never remember my dreams!!
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: no but i think its weird how God only made Earth have life...
Miracles?: uhh how could you not?
Astrology?: nope
Magic?: no
God?: ya
Satan?: yea
Santa?: ....third grade nightmare all over again!!
Ghosts?: no..
Luck?: nope
Love at first sight?: nope
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: ya sure whatever
Witches?: nope
Easter bunny?: no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yeah
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: haha i looked one time...it wasent there
Do you wish on stars?: no

Deep Theological Questions

Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: yes
Do you think God has a gender?: uhh ive never thought about it
Do you believe in organized religion?: yeah
Where do you think we go when we die?: Heaven or Hell

Friends

Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yeah
Who is your best friend?: sooo many
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: allie
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: hate the sin not the sinner AND if it doesnt kill you it only makes you stronger
Your favorite inside joke?: Hey look theres a truck!
Thing you're picked on most about?: my feet, loudmouth, grades, airheadishness
Who's your longest known friend?: brittany
Talking to?
Newest?: david
Shyest?: rachel
Funniest?: marie claire is hilarious too me!! but brittany can be hilarious when we are together
Sweetest?: lauren
Closest?: allie
Weirdest?: grant
Smartest?: allie
Ditziest?: probably me...lol
Friends you miss being close to the most?: KATIE!! and tyler...
Last person you talked to online?: Brittany
Who do you talk to most online?: umm random boys...
Who are you on the phone with most?: Lauren and Allie
Who do you trust most?: i trust all my friends
Who listens to your problems?: everyone...
Who do you fight most with?: allie
Who's the nicest?: lauren
Who's the most outgoing?: leslie
Who's the best singer?: allie (god i promise im not in love with her or anything)
Who's on your shit-list?:uhh your mom
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: hmmm maybe this one boy
Who's your second family?: The Dixons...
Do you always feel understood?: haha no
Who's the loudest friend?: ....Brittany or Leslie
Do you trust others easily?: oh yes VERY easily
Who's house were you last at?: Kerri Gronwalds...
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: your moms
Do your friends know you?: yep i would hope so...
Friend that lives farthest away: KATIE!!

Love and All That

Do you consider love a mistake?: ...depends
What do you find romantic?: ...when a guy treats a woman respect
Turn-on?: looks, smile, respect, the way he looks at you
Turn-off?: when they know they look good, cocky, gay
First kiss?: not sayin
If someone who you had no interest in had interest in dating you, how would u feel?: awkward
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: knowing them...but then it sucks because i get to be too good of friends with them
Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out: nope i wouldnt have the guts
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: yeah i think its all about personality
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: uhh how would i know?
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: they are confussing and lame sometimes
What's the last present someone gave you?: haha some coat hangers...
Are you in love?: no way

Who Was the Last Person...

That haunted you?: uhhh
You wanted to kill?: mr. petti
That you laughed at?: kerri
That laughed at you?: allie
That turned you on?: haha ohh no comment
You went shopping with?: i havent gone shopping in sooo long
That broke your heart?: rather not say
To disappoint you?: ...i dont really get disappointed in people, they do what they want and im happy for them!
To ask you out?: haha i dont know if it was a joke or not...so i better not say
To make you cry?: my dad
To brighten up your day?: my sissy
That you thought about?: sarah...b/c i just texted messaged her
You saw a movie with?: uhh its been awhile i cant remember
You talked to on the phone?: allie
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: jaimie
You saw?: kerri, laura, and julia
You lost?: hmm i cant say that i have lost anyone...
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: nope
Will it be with your significant other?: shutup
Or some random person?: your lame
What are you wearing right now?: pjs
Body part you're touching right now: uhhh gay
What are you worried about right now?: exams and the fact that my parents hate me
What book are you reading?: well this is long enough to be a book...but im rereading "The Notebook" for the third time...and also "Message in A Bottle" and "The Perks of Being A Wallflower"
What's on your mousepad?: my daddys logo for work
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: annoyed, pissed, bored, content, and uhh happy
Are you bored?: Yes!!
Are you tired?: yes!!
Are you talking to anyone online?: no im invisible...sneaky me
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: nope
Are you lonely or content?: haha wow i just used the word content up there...so uhh yeah i am
Are you listening to music?: nope

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 02:16:50 GMT

hmm i must say today was very intresting..."America's Next Top Model" has a marathon on VH1 since 11 this morning...I must admit that I have watched EVERY single one of them...lol oh the perks of being grounded!! Oh yeah did I mention that I punched a hole in my wall?? Haha yeah well I sure did...man I need to learn how to control my anger...oops but yeah its HUGE b/c i kinda like picked at it once i punched it and well my wrist hurts now...hehe hope you guys dont think im insane

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 00:24:40 GMT

Oh ya I forgot to say this in my other entry...

I am not grounded on Sunday!!!! YES! thats what I am talking about...lol not that I even care about that day, its mostly Sat. I am worried about BUT my dad used the term "I am digging myself out of a well" and the more good things I do...the more things I get rewarded with and there is the slightest possibility that I could go on Saturday ahhhh who knew tutoring would pay off sooo much.

Oh ya today I also completly forgot it was Thursday so when I was reminded about The O.C. I got this rush of adreniline b/c I was so happy...I wish I could talk to Leigh Anne about it but I am no longer friends with her due to the "inncident" that happened at lunch today along with Andrew!

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 00:22:23 GMT

Today was a good day, esecpially considering it was a B day!

--So last night my house alarm went off about 3 or 4 times b/c of the thunderstorms and what not. I only woke up to two of them tho and it actually went off at 6:30 (the EXACT time i needed to wake up...and it just so happens I didn't set me alarm) so God was helping me out on that one lol so then school was good...I decided to excempt History and Biology so the only one I actually have to study for is Geometry...haha funny story--Today in History we were taking an "open book" test and I completly forgot that it was open book so I decide to yell across the room "Hey Jeremy whats the answer to number 5"...therefor I got caught cheating and a 0 on the test lol oops...I do what I want tho haha kidding umm yeah its all good because I still get to excempt. So yeah 4th block was fun b/c im excempting and they were reviewing so I just got to sleep and play on the computer.

After school, being the good student I am I went to "tutorial" as Mr. Petti would call it but nooo for some reason Hitch and I arent alowed to come to tutoring b/c we don't show "effort" in class haha funny times i think its gay...teachers cant do that!! but yeah so we just got Thomas to tutor us which I guess was good b/c I ended up staying at the school for like 2 hours and I think i finally understand it which will be amazing if I pass.

So after that I came home and talked to Lauren on the phone for a million hours while she made fun of midgets on TV (you evil child)

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 00:39:29 GMT

So I am sitting there...watching E! News Live (since I am grounded and thats basically all I can do) well...they had some "insider" on The O.C. which I thought was very intresting...and I am not so sure if it is true or not...but take a look at this...

http://www.eonline.com/News/firstlook.html?tnews

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 08:07:54 GMT

So its 3 in the morning...and I am wide awake since I slept all day, and I beat the video game I was playing (yes!)...so what to do? Hmm....I figured it out and made a little picture thingy...(I am starting to become addicted to making them so be prepared!)

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 20:02:39 GMT

Things are starting to look up, im very glad that week is over sorry to all who had to endure the complaining (looking back i realize it was a little much and that i did sound spolied ooops)

School was good Friday...got caught up on my work and found out im alowed to excempt some exams had a little run in with Mr. Petti but two more weeks and Im done with him. After school Megann came to pick up Carley and I heard she got kicked out of her school haha oh how i love her...maybe she can come to MHS. Anyways then proceeded to go to Lanies party. Fun Times! Now I'm home and grounded b/c Mr. Petti called my parents blah oh well.

Greg leaves tomorrow to go to Iraq, blah. I called him on Tuesday (after watching a really sad Oprah about people in war.) and he told me that he is very nervous but knows he needs to go, and as nervous as he says that he is at the same time he said he was "ready and determined" to go. I am just pissed that my parents won't let me go to church tomorrow to say goodbye to him. I mean he is going for a whole year...you would think they would understand. However, I think it just as good for me not to go because I wouldn't handle it very well. But yeah Greg knows he will be missed.

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 23:47:32 GMT


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hah thats right...you all wish you had Adam Brody as your love...but don't you see test proove..HE IS MINE!

Long Entry

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 23:39:57 GMT

Today was yet another terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day! It seems to me a lot of people are having bad days...I think we should all run away together.

Yesterday (Wednesday)I woke up and was determined not to go to school, not because I was sick but because well i dunno. So I told my mom I didn't feel well and there is nothing she can do to force me. So I stayed home and slept till about 1 and was lazy all day (it felt nice!) I went to bed around 10 and then this morning I woke up and was refreshed and ready to go to school. However my mom and I then proceeded to get into the biggest fight we have ever gotten to in our lives. That might sound dramatic but we get into fights a lot (almost daily) but today it was VERY bad. I seriously believe she has gone insane. However that doesn't really bother me. So after much debating she MADE me go to school. I got there and I was not a happy camper. I don't know at first I didn't feel sick, I was just so mad at her that I think it started making me feel sick. So I went to first block, which flew by and then afterwards realized I can't stay at school any longer so then I went and called her and she was veryyyy mad at me. However I got to come home. So I slept untill 10 in the morning untill now (6:30) ahh Im insane!! So yeah for different reasons this has been one of the worst weeks of my life. Today has been VERY bad. I am starting to slowly realize Georgia is not a very fun state to live in.

--I love my friends so much...all of you thank you so much for always being there for me!! Seriously you don't know what you have done for me! Thanksgiving break was one of the best times I have had just "hanging out"...Im also looking forward to hanging out with all my girls tomorrow night!!

--My old school friends who I just recently got to hang out with, I love you all soo much and I miss you a lot!!

February 8^th-Kasey gets license

February 11^th-Go visit Katie

9.5 weeks until I get my license

10 weeks until I visit Katie

67 days until I get my license

70 days until I visit Katie

1,440 hours until I get my license

1,680 hours until I visit Katie

864,00 minutes until I get my license

100,800 minutes until I visit Katie

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 03:27:31 GMT

The man I will marry...

1. Will watch The O.C. with me

2. Will have brown hair

3. He will understand that the girl (me!) is always right...hehe

4. He will pay for the dates

5. Our first date will be bowling (haha I think that would be cute!)

6. He will give me back massages

7. He won't cuss in front of me, or any other "lady"

8. He will be everything I am not

9. He will be PATIENT!

10. He will laugh at my jokes/stories, even when they aren't funny

11. Reality television is a must for him

12. He won't insist on having animals (blah!)

13. He will let me name our children (Cori and Tapanga...lol)

14. He will goof off with me and be silly

15. He will make fun of people with me (haha not in a "mean" way)

16. I can tell him anything and he won't judge me

17. We have to be alike...

18. He has to be kinda dorky lol (and not bigheaded!!)

19. He has to think the weird things about me is what makes me special...(like my fear of horses!)

20. He has to look somewhat like Adam Brody

21. A little chubby tehehehe

22. Drive a red/black car...NOT a white car

23. He will kiss me all the time lol

24. He won't mind my singing

25. He believes in the same things I do

26. He has to support Bush!

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 02:53:17 GMT

This morning when I woke up...suddenly a lot of things became clear to me. I don't think thats a good thing.

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 05:35:39 GMT

Pick a band and answer the questions only using song titles from that band.

SPICE GIRLS!!!

1. Are you male or female? Diva Forever
2. Describe yourself: Never Give Up On The Good Times
3. How do others feel about you sometimes? Who Do You Think You Are
4. How do you feel about yourself? Wannabe
5. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest: Get Down With Me
6. Where would you rather be? Waisting My Time
7. Describe what you want to be: Naked
8. Describe how you live: Spice Up Your Life
9. Describe how you love: Weekend Love
10. Share a few words of wisdom: Let Love Lead The Way

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 16:59:17 GMT

My family (most of the time), My amazing friends who have helped in more ways than they ever can imagine, My beautiful house, The ability to be able to walk/talk/see/hear/etc, Television, Computer, Instant Messanger, Telophone, My hair straightner, Seinfield/Friends/The O.C./Laguna Beach/Amazing Race/Real World for keeping me entertained, My second grade teacher (Mrs. Malone) for still ALWAYS being there for me, teachers in general, the fact that I am able to get an education, being able to experience 13 years at Mount Paran, Pictures/Cameras, the awesome memories I have, Tim for being the funniest guy I know, My youth group/church, The adults who volunteer at my church, Having a sister that I can borrow clothes from, People who are in the army/police department/fire department, Allie for being my best friend, The people who keep me entertained late at night by talking to me, candles, The Notebook for being the best book in the world, Shane and Shane for being the best music I have ever heard, Stars, Sunset/Sunrises, The beach, Tuesday nights with Grant, Hot guys, People who act like themselves and don't care what people think, God, Starbucks, Marietta High School and it being the best school ever, Forrest Gump being my favorite movie and keeping me entertained, Being able to dance with to Spice Girls and Backstreet Boys with my friends, Mexico Mission Trip, Leslie for helping me become a Christian, Holidays, Days off from school,

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 20:52:39 GMT

TRY THIS: Write ten statements intended toward 10 different people. Write about something you would never say to his/her face or something that you wish you would have said, but did not.(or something that you would say if you're not scared of them) There is no need to tell the person it was about him/her, but if the courage is there, do it.

---Yes, Lanie I got this from you, I thought it was clever. If you know what number you all are then umm keep it to yourself

1. You are the cutest little thing, I am glad that I have gotten to know you better than this year and I hope we can continue to be friends and become closer because I feel like we could bond some more! You make me laugh at things that aren't even funny and when I am in the worst mood I just think of the story when you met that boy and waved to him and it makes me laugh and our hugs are the best!

2. This year we haven't hung out as much as I would like but I will always consider you one of my friends. We can read each others mind so of course you will always be one of my best friends...I just HATE how we never see each other during school. I think we might need to start the note writing back up

3. Last year we didn't even talk and we had science together! We are insane!! I am glad that we got to sit by each other for that short period in computer class...and I hope we can continue to get close!

4. My buddy that I went to church with for so many years and didn't hang out with. I am so glad you are at Marietta...and I love talking to you, you make me feel like you are really listening and your always there for me.

5. You are my favorite...I love hanging out with you and talking to you. I think it is so weird that we talked to eachother on the internet and stuff and saw each other in the mall and didn't really know eachother but still talked! I don't know how we got to be so close (it was kind of random) but you truly are one of my closest friends...you are one of the sweetest girls I know and very genuine. Its also good that we hang out alot and you never seem to get on my nerves...normally I get tired of people very easily and start to gossip/talk bad about them...but with you it seems like there isent one mean thing I can say because your so amazing.

6. I feel like we are relationship is weird. We are close but not as close as I would like to be. We have a lot in common and I like to hang out with you it just seems like we never do...I think we need to work on "making more time" with each other

7. You are my greatest guy friend...when i talk to you i feel like you understand me more than anyone else and I miss seeing you all the time I want you to come live in my neighborhood again. I am so comfortable just hanging out with you, lol even tho the sexual tension kills me (kidding!)

8. We grew up together and i will always love you however the decisions you are making right now disappoint me a lot. whenever you ask me if i care i always say no but deep down it does. normally i wouldn't care because like all my friends do that but you are different. You shouldn't be doing the idiotic things you are doing its only going to screw you over for the rest of your life. I want to just like get in your face and yell at you because you are only doing it to look cool and i know you do so just stop doing it or itleast stop telling me all your busines because all it does is upset me.

9. you confused me like no one has ever confussed me before. i thought girls were suppose to be the ones that were hard to read or played hard to get but you are different. however when im around you (which isent often) i cant help but get somewhat of a feeling...even tho the way i feel about you has gone up and down i have faced the facts that it will never work out however you are what i look for in a guy, i want him to have the same qualities as you. except the fact that you intially do stuff to make me mad and make me jeolous

10. I miss you so much...we only hung out for a short period of time but that was good "bonding time" haha I love talking to you tho when we get the chance. I can't wait to see you in a few months and go on "our" swing and well you know talk....haha you can't blame me for making fun of your name and not being able to pronounce it

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 02:51:30 GMT

i love juans eyes in this picture!

weird picture of both of them

haha they just happen to wear the same thing...love it

pimp

haha too cute

patrick is overwhelmed by hannahs love

these are the ladies that i sing old camp songs with

Brittany and I had a "bonding" experience this week

oh yes, lanies house...good times

Lanie

I was so hyper i would take pictures of people in front of me to annoy them with the flash...oops

Allie and me...at shane and shane concert

leslie took time away from juan to take a picture with us...how lucky are we?

oh boys...

everyone that went to the concert...crazy!

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 16:56:18 GMT

Woke up this morning not feeling so great...but I went downstairs to watch television and this one show happened to be on called "True Life I'm Obese" and I know this is completly random to post (I am into this random posts lately) but like this lady had some type of disease where it made her gain a ridiculous amount of weight in a very short period of time. It talked about how she had no friends and that basically she sat around her house all day doing nothing. Later on in the episode it showed how she was in this "Online Support Group" and how she would email people she didn't know back and forth and how she had a secret pal. Well in the mail she got a card from them that said "Hope you have a great day" and a set of very cheap candles...the lady on the episode starting crying so hard. She kept saying "This person doesn't know how much they helped me" and things like that. It made me depressed to think that this lady has absoultly no friends and then this complete stranger that she met online sent her this and it helped her in so many ways. It makes me think...how people today pass along oppurtinitys to be nice to people where we have no idea whats going on with them it also makes me think how blessed I am to have such wonderful friends. But yeah I just wanted to share that little story and let people know how the little things like that can really help someone.

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 04:24:28 GMT

REGION CHAMIONS 0'4

I know we lost tonight...which sucks it really does! But I thought I would be the first to post since I know everyone is going to post and be like "God its gay we lost" I mean true it is extremly lame that we lost but ya gotta look on the good side. We had an amazing season, and some great memories! It was going to end sometime...just sucks that it was tonight. Basketball season here we come!!

--I will never forget--singing old camp songs with lauren, hannah, and brittany/throwing confetti all over people (esecpially lauren)/watching dorsie dance/getting pushed around after we scored/leslie hitting the old lady in the head/meeting random people/talking about the "TRUCK!"/ and sooo much more!!

...this was was somewhat lame of me to write about but thought i would get it out of my system

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 13:32:13 GMT

In computer applications right now...really bored and tired! However we are getting ready to go to the assembly...exciting! Last night was amazing Shane and Shane conert with 20 of my closest friends...can't get much better than that. Anyways I have been doing alot of "deep" thinking...go with me here!

--So I love going to school because I love seeing my friends and I love the environment but I was talking to people who have already gone to college or who are in college right now and they said 90% of the time you never keep the friends you have in highschool. They said that no matter how much you say you are going to stay friends with everyone (or even a selected few) that it never happens. I mean you move on and find other people to hang out with. I mean I said I would keep all my friends from Mount Paran because I loved them so much however I have only kept one or two and its nowhere near the same. I mean I love all my girls at marietta and guys but like to think that after high school we aren't really going to be friends makes me feel really...i dunno the word "weird." I mean there are some people that I absoultly LOVE to hang out with but im not really "close" with them and it makes me sad to think that there going to be basically out of my life in 2/3 more years. Everyone always says college is the best time of your life (not thinking to far ahead) but 20 years from now are we going to look back on memories and think of high school or college? My math teacher (whom i can't stand) was talking about how high school doesn't really matter...its just going to be something of the past. I feel like what I am learning is completly pointless/useless too. I mean true some of it I will use but the majority of it I feel that I won't. I mean Im not going to get some outragous/random job where I am going to have to need to convert cellular respiration into blah blah blah whatever but like I don't know I feel like what I am learning in school is completly useless and I feel like the only reason why I go is to see my friends...and if other people are correct that I won't even have these friends a few years after college...so basically what I am saying is that I feel so pointless not like the pointless where I can't change the world...just pointless that I feel like what we do everyday is a complete waste. Ahh I don't think I make sense

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 22:53:01 GMT

Oh ya last night we found out at church that Greg (a youth advisor whom I LOVE!!) is going to Iraq...he lives on December 6th. Which means no Christmas for him. He also has to go for a whole year. Man there is nothing you can say about this situation but that it sucks! Its just more of a reality about the war and all. I mean I went up to him and was like "Are you scared?" and he was like "For the first time, I have to admit that I am scared." Ah I don't mean to bring up the whole argument on if the war is right or wrong and the whole Kerry/Bush thing but like my views kinda changed a little on the war when I found out about Greg. I used to feel like war was fine and it was actually a good thing and that so we may loose some lifes and blah blah blah but now I really don't want Greg to leave. I kind of feel selfish, like I complain so much about school and all and having to wake up in the morning where as he is getting ready to go put his life in danger and the reason he is doing it is for me and the United States and our freedom. So yeah please keep him in your prayers.

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 22:46:49 GMT

Well this was an exciting weekend...haha not really! Well on Friday I finally convienced my parents to let me go to the game so I came home and slept and then went to the game. It was exciting we won! I hope we win this Friday!! Yeah well then Waffle House was kinda boring but exciting at the same time...everyone was getting mad at Johnny Johnson which I have to admit was funny but really sad at the same time! Then Grant took jojo home and then me and we rocked out to Backstreet Boys...it was awesome! So yeah I came home went to sleep around 3 and well woke up at 4 o clock the next afternoon lol! Ooops...I was suppose to go play tennis in Lees Crossing...but that definatly didn't work out. So I had a "lazy" day which I loved. Allie came over and made cookies and we watched The O.C. and Motormouth (which by the way it is HILARIOUS!!!) but yeah i laugh at what a loser i am i mean its saturday night and im watching The O.C. AGAIN ah i dont really care tho...so yeah then Sunday I slept in and didnt go to church (i know true REBEL!) I guess I just needed to get caught up on my sleep but I slept more than I was awake this weekend...and yeah then I met up with Meghan for dinner before youth group at La Parilla and we had a nice little convo I love her! Then church was alright and afterwards Brandon and I went to Wendys and talked about football (yes!!) and we also jammed out to Spice Girls on the way home lol that was my weekend............today i chopped all my hair off i dont know i felt like getting rid of it...its different

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 21:40:52 GMT

So I was sitting there in target the other day and out of nowhere I see this magazine and of course I love Jessica Simpson (as some of you might know!) but better yet I loved the magazine just because of what it was called...it made me think of someone that is really cool...so of course I whipped out my digital camera in the middle of target and decided to get a quick shot of it...so this "really cool" person could see for herself that I was thinking about her while i strolled threw target...ill let you decide who i was talking about!

Haha yeah thats right Marie Claire you have a magazine named after you! (i dunno if it is spelled the same way tho...)

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 18:43:44 GMT

The O.C. came on yesterday...and it changed my life!

-No updates for awhile...grounded!